killing me.

Ello peeps. 

I have no idea what's happening on me. I feel tired, i feel extremely tired. Sometimes i wonder how am i suppose to get rid from this stressful life. And living in a stress-free life? I understand, and i know this is just another tiny ordeal in my life. I'm going to face a lot a lot a lot of problems , obstacles. I'm clear what i suppose to do now, but sometimes i really cant stand in this life. I should be study hard and not going to care about everything just studies. 

I'm worried, i'm afraid. I don't know what's going on if i did not get a good result? I'm worrying how am i going to face my family, relatives, friends and also myself? At the same time, I also do wonder who's the one cares about me besides my friends and my boyfriend. Yeah, i meant my family. I feel sad, i know this wouldn't help me in my results. But mentally, it helps me a lot. You know what? I really hope i could see my family support and encourage me. But i can see non. 

Having raya holidays, i thought this holidays could let me release some stress. But it increasing.... I'm starting to afraid, i'm afraid of the exam. No one knows me well, even my family. I've no confidence at all, i don't know what will happen during on the exam. What result i will get . Sorry for saying that, sometimes i have the urge to give up everything. But i know i have to face it to get my awesome future by myself. 

Two more subjects, three more papers. I haven't ready about it. Tomorrow i have to start the war again, for me it's too late but anyway i still have to face it. However, i still have to face it whenever i get a good or bad result in the trial. Anyway, studies really killing me .

Seriously, I'm Tired....